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Deja Vu

I seem to be having a continuous stream of Deja Vu. It started in spurts when I got to Pennsylvania. Today I feel like I’m awake in a dream. It’s not that everything is spectacular yet, as My thought process is not enabling that. Perhaps I have become Awake to life. I Can’t help but wonder if Deja Vu is a reflection of something God has seen play out. Some type of reminder to my physical self of what my spirit has known…

The Two Will Become One.

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Light, Dark
Yin, Yang
Good, Evil
Right, Wrong
Masculine, Feminine
… Alpha, Omega

As a species we have defined our word through extremes. Through these definitive words we are not only limiting our own potential, but limiting the all encompassing balance and supremacy the universe, or what I call God, is offering. The Two Will Become One. we have reached a pivotal shift, which we must allow our hearts to give way to, without the mind impeading. It is within our heart that we understand unities place. The Two Will Become One. I is time to break through these barriers of thoughts and words to allow free flow of spirit, and in turn external connection. This is often unknowingly what we long for, Connection, spiritual connection, which will also manifest physically. loose yourself. Silence your mind. Begin to hear the whispers of your heart. Allow your soul to lead. Break the barriers. Forget the extremes.

“I have lots of things to teach you now, in case we ever meet, concerning the message that was transmitted to me under a pine tree in North Carolina on a cold winter moonlit night. It said that Nothing Ever Happened, so don’t worry. It’s all like a dream. Everything is ecstasy, inside. We just don’t know it because of our thinking-minds. But in our true blissful essence of mind is known that everything is alright forever and forever and forever. Close your eyes, let your hands and nerve-ends drop, stop breathing for 3 seconds, listen to the silence inside the illusion of the world, and you will remember the lesson you forgot, which was taught in immense milky way soft cloud innumerable worlds long ago and not even at all. It is all one vast awakened thing. I call it the golden eternity. It is perfect. We were never really born, we will never really die. It has nothing to do with the imaginary idea of a personal self, other selves, many selves everywhere: Self is only an idea, a mortal idea. That which passes into everything is one thing. It’s a dream already ended. There’s nothing to be afraid of and nothing to be glad about. I know this from staring at mountains months on end. They never show any expression, they are like empty space. Do you think the emptiness of space will ever crumble away? Mountains will crumble, but the emptiness of space, which is the one universal essence of mind, the vast awakenerhood, empty and awake, will never crumble away because it was never born.”
~ Jack Kerouac

 

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Trying to decipher between Labels,

Am I….

Controlled,

Addict,

Mother,

Girlfriend,

Hard-worker,

People Pleaser…?

Sick,

Traumatized,

Beautiful,

‘A Gem’,

Nerd,

A Friend,

Selfish,

Abused,

Nurturing,

Christian,

Faithless,

Heathen,

Condemned….

 

I THINK, what I have been is Influenced.  Allowing Labels to define what is most precious, ME.   As a result of these labels and past experiences toiling through my head I have believed a fictitious story about myself.  Meanwhile, feeling as though I am trying to claw my way out from the inside.  Utterly discontent and uncomfortable Everyday.  Momentary lapses of clarity have begun to give way.  Fleeting spaces in time where I feel necessary, meaningful and complete.  In these moments I have let go of stigmas placed by me and others.   Allowing the constructs of my mind to merge with soul,  moving away from the world and it’s words into my home and my heart.  Where in I am Outside of Labels.  Within I am not what I have done, I am who I am.  I am not a story to be written nor a Label to be spoken.

 

We are all Addicts

So Interesting. Addiction has become a human condition.  Drugs and alcohol are only included in the ‘addiction’.  All of these things are symptoms to the problem, which ultimately is a deeply rooted spiritual problem that manifests in us, just wanting to feel something different than we already do.  We want to change the Gaping hole of destroyed self- worth, condemnation, regret, and a genuine feeling of unhappiness ALL the time.  We try to find labels to make ourselves feel better, or more worthy members of society.  Jobs, relationships, sex, drugs (insert drug of choice here), religion, charity. .  pick your poison.  Bottom line is most of us spend a life time trying to Feel Better.  The ultimate rock bottom, as I see it, Is not over- dosing or ‘loosing it all’.  Rock bottom is when you realize that none of these things work.  None of these things take away the all consuming pain you feel every second of every day.  In fact all of these ‘symptoms’ only contribute to your unyielding burning in the for of guilt and resentment.  I have not yet UN-locked the secret to happiness.  I believe it starts with our thought process, and I’m told a Higher- Power must be present to fill this void we encounter.  For me, I’ve been learning that I am actually in control of my life, and that I am capable of perusing the things I am passionate about.  I still feel a struggle hourly, sometimes momentarily as I fear the next thing that may happen.  But I then have to remind myself that, in the epic storyline of events transpired in my life, everything has seemed to work out.  I do believe in God, a Higher- Power.  I can’t imagine him as a parent figure, My parents, I don’t believe are the best model for this, unless God’s ‘Love’ is conditional.  I suppose I follow a spirituality similar to Nhat Hanh,  I believe ‘being in the image of God’, we posses the power to effect the world around us, beginning with ourselves.  I believe God reveals himself in many forms, personal to the individual who seeks. I see God as a collective consciousness, inhabiting everyone and everything.  I see God as all encompassing ‘good’ and ‘evil’.  He must be? I have been on a quest to find exactly what My Concept of God is.  Though I have not entirely figured it out yet, I know this is the piece I am lacking.  And what my heart is desperately searching for.

 

“When I Say I am a Christian”

“When I say I am a Christian, I’m not shouting I’m Clean living,

I’m whispering ‘I was lost’, Now I’m found and forgiven.

When I say I am a Christian, I don’t speak of this with pride,

I’m confessing that I Stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say I am a Christian, I’m not trying to be strong,

I’m professing that I’m weak, and need his strength to carry on.

When I say I am a Christian, I’m not bragging of success,

I’m admitting I have failed, and need God to clean my mess.

When I say I am a Christian, I’m not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far to visible, but God believes I am worth it.

When I say I am a Christian, I still feel the sting of pain,

I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon his name.

When I say I am a Christian, I’m not holier than thou,

I’m just a simple sinner who recieved God’s grace somehow”

-Maya Angelou

Divinity Abounds

Everything manifesting
Divinity abounds
Brings light to what seemed darkness
Showing no darkness surrounds
Intention in everything
Does not belong to me
Purpose through the senseless
Through an all encompassing key
Keep perspectives focused
on Truth and Heart
Out of these flows purity
From there we break apart
From lives we’ve believed
False blinds cast out

 

Everything seems like a struggle.  Perhaps it is.  But what are we actually struggling with?  No matter the circumstance, it seems we struggle either action or inaction.  We struggle with the question of what will or what could happen. And, how do we cause these effects to transpire.

If we are honest we may find that the majority of our motives are rooted in self-will.  Very few act purely, without abandonment for the benefit of others.  Emotion, and then feelings are the leading source of this struggle.  Desires placed heavy conceive expectation and then give birth to struggle.  As a child matures within his mothers womb, so does our do our desires.  What will we name this child?

Our deepest desires will always come to pass.  Such is the law of attraction.  We should strive to bleak free of conformity.  Freedom is found in embracing all that we are as individuals.  Releasing labels and stigmas.  Re-creating our self view, shifting focus from what is socially normal.  Focusing instead on our passions and capabilities.  We release the struggle when we regain control of our own happiness.  The collective consciousness, that is ‘God’, desires this for us.  For, he is found withing us.

Our happiness will come when we allow clarity to shine through what seems to be chaos.  Showing, what is, at a universal level.  If we search within our personal story we see that we are clearly still here, alive and breathing, still learning to let go of the struggle, and submit to what is.  Embrace the unfolding of events, train our desires to be those of wisdom, not possessions.   Connection, not control.

There is no place for worry.  The things we are meant to partake in will reveal themselves.  Such is the way of the universe.  With everything in nature and science following a specific order and purpose, how could we, as a part of everything, be any different?  ‘God’, as a collective consciousness acts as a driving force, a wave of possibilities.  Our responsibility is to become aware of the possibilities and participate when prompted.

 

Acceptance

My heart beats heightened

Eyes shed no tear

My outward appearance reveals terror

True self defeat

Gives birth to faith

Faith in myself, not some haughty face

Been searching a lifetime

trying to fill my Void

This epic quest transpires universally

A twisted lesson

‘I Am’ describes as love

As we all feel suffering, and cry out up above

 

Our power lies within individuality

Acceptance of ourselves, will set us free

Your deepest desires are what will come to pass,  whether they seem attainable is irreverent.  Follow your bliss.

 

Though I feel you always

Void seems to find me in absence

Surrounded by provision

Connection is what I crave

Individuals we may be

Our souls conjoined set us free

Until the day we may physically touch

I allow memories as a crutch

 

Enoch Tan

“We may think that everything we are experiencing in our external reality is a reflection of our inner consciousness, therefore when we see negative events that we feel we aren’t presently creating, we become confused and frustrated. We start doubting the law of attraction and our reality creation powers. The truth is that although the outer world is a reflection of the inner world, it is only a partial reflection. What we see in the visible world is not all there is.

Like the tip of an iceberg, there is a whole portion that remains submerged under the surface of the water. The outer world is the exposed portion while the inner world is the hidden portion. When we create reality by setting an intention, there is an entire process of events that appears in the inner world. Each event is connected to another until finally the full manifestation of the intention is realized. What we see in the outer world is only part of the process as it unfolds over time.

When we see bad things happening, we wonder why it is so when we know we did not consciously intend them to happen. When we set an intention to create wealth, we may encounter loss. When we set an intention to have a better relationship with someone, we encounter obstacles or conflict to make it worse. Actually what we are facing is only temporary. Those very events that appear as bad are really not bad at all. They are just part of the process of things turning into our greatest good.” ♀

-Enoch Tan

So Cool! This video produces one avenue I believe God Manifests

 

I Urge You to check this out!  Will be more like this in the future.

 

I like to search for ‘God’ in everything.  I like to think of ‘God’ as a collective consciousness, flowing through existence.  Today I decided to dive into one of my Favorite books!  Lewis Carroll’s ‘Alice in Wonderland’.  What is your concept of ‘God’?

– “But I don’t want to go among mad people,” Alice remarked.
“Oh, you can’t help that,” said the Cat: “we’re all mad here. I’m mad. You’re mad.”
“How do you know I’m mad?” said Alice.
“You must be,” said the Cat, or you wouldn’t have come here.”

– “Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.”

– “Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?”
“That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.”
“I don’t much care where –”
“Then it doesn’t matter which way you go.”

– “You would have to be half mad to dream me up.”

– “How puzzling all these changes are! I’m never sure what I’m going to be, from one minute to another.”

– “In another moment down went Alice after it, never once considering how in the world she was to get out again.”

– “Be what you would seem to be- or, if you’d like it put more simply- Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.”

– “It’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then.”

Isn’t this a beautiful picture of a ‘God’ centered life? Believing the unbelievable.  Expecting the unattainable.  I’ve felt that in order to be a person of any faith, you must be a bit ‘Crazy’ ❤

Power of the Tongue

Hate is a very strong word. One I prefer not to use, but I am guilty of extreme fits of emotion that feel hateful. The same goes for words like every, always, never, only, promise and the phrase ‘Im telling you the truth’. At this point my faith in the choice words people use is non-existent. But the pain of those words sting none- the -less.

Through Christianity and other faiths teach of blessings and cursing… by definition to Bless someone is to speak well of them and in doing so literally send forth good things their way. To curse someone by speaking ill of them is as sending evil/curses their way.

In 1994 Dr. Masuru Emoto theorized that water would be directly effected by it’s environment in conjunction with human consciousness.  He essentially took twice purified (considered ‘pure’ water), and separated it into multiple containers.  For each specimen Dr. Emoto either spoke a particular word or phrase in a controlled setting, such as ‘love’, ‘peace’, ‘you make me sick, I will kill you’ and so on.  With others he played various types of music including metal, classical and folk.  the effect of prayer or lack there of was also calculated.  The water was then frozen for several days, examined under a dark field microscope while frozen.  And finally photographed.  Each crystal was drastically different than the next.  At a molecular structure water was effected and perhaps changed entirely.  I make reference to this well known experiment only to talk about our physical make- up being comprised of about 70-85% water.  I am of the thought, if basic water molecules are effected in such a way than this proved theory is evidence that our bodies are no different.

Regardless of faithful affiliation or intellect the power of choice in words is evident.  It may feel that emotionally we can become out of control but we stay the masters of our actions.  And when faith a science balance in this way I believe we should accept the lesson.