Tag Archive: love


Perspectives with a 3 y/o

The ‘Joys’ of parenting and the gifts of Perspective….This week:

1. I learned that Cigarette ashes remover PERMANENT marker from a flat screen. And Rubbing Alcohol removes PERMANENT marker from everything else.

2. My three year old is more inclined to do anything I ask If I can manage to sound excited about it.. “Tristan if you take a nap now, Spider-man could Visit In your Dreams”

3. The best way to teach my child is to allow him to explore and test the waters himself. I provide safety and guidance.

4. Frogs may be invisible.

5. Watching Casper with my son is an effective method in reducing any new Ghost fears.

6. Go outside!! Explore, look for pictures in clouds, hug trees, walk barefoot.

7. Most importantly I learned that the key to my sanity is in surrendering my self willed desires and giving in to the spontaneity found within my 3 year old….

Loving The Little Mermaid clearly set me up for Unhealthy expectations and practices in the world. Watching it now with Tristan, I realize these are the lessons I learned and acted upon after idolizing Ariel.

1. It is the best idea to not only defy your father, but give your whole family a big fuck you, in search of ‘stuff’
2. ‘Stuff’ makes you feel better and gives you hope of a better life.
3. Apart of your world- Everything would be better if I just lived in a completely different world.
4. Fuck finns, I want legs so I can walk, stroll and ask how fire burns.
5. Sharks?! Ariel don’t care, neither do I.
6. When you ‘Love’ someone, the way to get their love reciprocated is to abandon your heritage and home to become like them.
7. Also in this quest to win a lovers ‘Love’ Give up whatever it takes to simply be in their presence.
8. A kiss means someone loves you.
9. If a man finds you half dressed on the shore, unable to speak, he will take you back to his yacht.
10. Even after all this, dad will forgive and turn anyone who has hurt or mislead you into deathly, stagnant, ocean sperm.

Ariel, you are a misguided, weak, spoiled girl… Drunk on a picture of Love resulting in codependency. I feel my faith in you was miss placed as a naive girl. Because you were one of the lucky ones….

Love is Never a Dependency

“One of the most important of life´s lessons is to learn independence, to understand freedom. This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations. Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.”

 

― Brian L. Weiss, Messages from the Masters: Tapping Into the Power of Love (also the author of Many lives, many masters.)

The Two Will Become One.

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Light, Dark
Yin, Yang
Good, Evil
Right, Wrong
Masculine, Feminine
… Alpha, Omega

As a species we have defined our word through extremes. Through these definitive words we are not only limiting our own potential, but limiting the all encompassing balance and supremacy the universe, or what I call God, is offering. The Two Will Become One. we have reached a pivotal shift, which we must allow our hearts to give way to, without the mind impeading. It is within our heart that we understand unities place. The Two Will Become One. I is time to break through these barriers of thoughts and words to allow free flow of spirit, and in turn external connection. This is often unknowingly what we long for, Connection, spiritual connection, which will also manifest physically. loose yourself. Silence your mind. Begin to hear the whispers of your heart. Allow your soul to lead. Break the barriers. Forget the extremes.

I thank God for the message about to be given, and my prayer is that a seed is planted within you that takes root,
dies and becomes firmly rooted within your spirit, as the world depends on it, on you, on US.
We have been created within this plane of existence as human. Placed in higher regard than even the angels.
We have been given free will where the Angels are commanded by the very voice of God.
We have been given the gift to choose to accept the Love and gifts of the spirit of God.
To utilize these things, to Love in return, unconditionally, and called to share these gifts with the world!
(ha! too funny, as God would have it R.E.M’s Loosing my religion streamed through my music as I’m writing this)
When I speak of God i do not reference a greying man in the sky marching with a cane and sprinkling magic God dust bring peace and
prosperity to church going people. I speak of the Force from which the universe and ALL inhabitants were created.
The Source of all that is and all that could ever be imagined. He is all of these things imagined. He is The Love within
you, and the Love that streams through you. You are BLESSED to be a vessel, called to light By him, for him, THROUGH HIM.
And you have CHOSEN to say Yes! I will take part in bringing your light and your Love to a broken, contrite, Dying world.
My true purpose in writing this is not to preach to you about God, If he has taught me anything, it is that he comes
to each individual as is fit for that person. Your relationship with God is just that, it is personal, intimate and ESSENTIAL.
I urge you to meditate on that concept alone. An INTIMATE relationship with God – as a Twin meets their Flame God is pursuing
YOU. I am concerned. I am concerned that though we have recognized some gifts we have been given, we are not recognizing
the source and in essence asking idols for guidance. I grew up in a home where the word God was not spoken, nor was the concept
illustrated. We learned of astral projecting, utilizing the help of our spirit guides. We trusted tarot cards, were given
dreams of prophecy. We read of interpreting dreams. We regressed to past lives. . . I went from there to studying any and all faith bases I could from
the Tibetan book of the dead, to the Koran, to Taoism, back to mythology and most recently to Catholicism/Christianity (which
5 years ago i would have shunned entirely). At this point the veils once placed have been lifted from my eyes.
God can not be summed in any one book of theology. But we have been taught this,
God has made himself PERSONALLY available to us. No longer is he in a box, where only the holiest of holies can go, hopefully
not to hear a bell ring as he drops dead to the floor covered in ‘sin’. God is Calling YOU to HIM personally. I urge you
in your prayers and meditations to Go directly to him as the source, there is no reason for mediators. And I Promise you
any real progress you are making within these gifts is a result of HIS will, and your response, not because of the angel, or deity
you have prayed too. Things of this world are either OF GOD or of EGO, people. WE need to recognize GOD as the source of everything
within life. Being the people he’s guided in connection with you, the dreams you are having, the words that are pouring
out of you, the light-headed feeling that seeps into every fiber of your being. Within every fiber of your being you are intertwined
with the same energy that brings life giving properties to the sun. A feeling was stirred up in me today, which I would have typically
interpreted as fear. Though God has created EVERYTHING, everything includes choice. Though God created the angels to love and serve him,
over 133,316,666 (roughly) of these angels have chosen to go against the love and life of God. For each Arch angel their is an
opposing Angel generally attributed to a deadly sin. There are forces at work in dimensions you cannot see that wish nothing
more than to thwart everything God is utilizing your gifts for. Your gifts are not for you, they are for the WORLD, for LOVE
and painting a portrait of God. Making him tangible in an unbelieving world. Be cautious in your practices, always remembering,
remaining thankfull to GOD. Always keeping God at the center of your meditations, for he is the only source. The channels in
which he chooses to reveal to you are up to him, not you for interpreting. Use heavenly wisdom. Head to your heart, and always work in light.
Having been on both sides of this veil, I urge you not to just take my words, hear what God is speaking to you and meditate on
that, WITH him. You have been called as sons and daughters of the most high. Take your place. The world needs God’s Love Now!

♑☥♑
8/17

 

Through the Looking Glass

 

 

Finally took the road less traveled
through the looking glass
found whats always mattered

winding paths surrender to talking trees
finally i found the cabin’s keys

I know I’ve sought this road before
free to let my spirit soar

I cannot take credit for this
heart received redemption’s kiss

 

Love From Afar

I can’t stop from looking
In hopes you will see
Keep looking through you
Do you want to know me?
Want to Love you for all that you are
Are you willing to step out from afar?
Are you able to accept me in the way I’ve accepted you?
Can you take on all of me, knowing that it’s all true?

I’m no longer wondering
I know where I’m supposed to be
Have you found your place?
Do you know that it’s with me?
I know life is demanding
I know it’s filled with stress
I know that I’m the answer
De-tangle-thought mess

Within your heart we are intertwined
Was it within mine first?
Though I failed to see the line?
I know who you are
Do you want to know me?
Will we get there soon?
Will we be set free?

♑☥♑

 

Entwined

My heart is crying out to you
My head no longer pretends
That loneliness was meant for me
With no hopes to mend

A spirit once broken
Contrite and filled with fear
Has been given a breath of life
Releasing bliss’s Tear

I’ve always dreamed about you
Two lights float in the divide
In our secret place we would meet
Where our souls there would bind

My thoughts no longer search
My head no longer in control
My heart has taken over
Entwined with yours forever more

♑☥♑
11-5-2012

Perfect Creation

I know he’s speaking to you
I know you hear him clear
I know his spirit guides you
I know he holds you near

I feel vibrations from him
He draws me closer through you
I feel the Love surrounding
He calls me to give in
I know he’s speaking to me
I keep my heart open

Just that I may hear
Every word he’s spoken
We cant experience the sound
But we feel the Vibration
He is the essence uniting
Perfect Creation

♑☥♑
11-6-12

“Saudade was once described as “the love that remains” after someone is gone. Saudade is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again. It can be described as an emptiness, like someone (e.g., one’s children, parents, sibling, grandparents, friends, pets) or something (e.g., places, things one used to do in childhood, or other activities performed in the past) that should be there in a particular moment is missing, and the individual feels this absence. It brings sad and happy feelings all together, sadness for missing and happiness for having experienced the feeling.”

 

Colors of fall leaves radiate

bringing warmth and brilliance

to the autumn air

Green mountains submit to colorful trees

The air brings about a feeling of comfort

in the cool dusky sky

As the sun falls behind the spectrum

Bringing about the nights air

A pungent scent of dew forms

sweet, electric to the senses

Holes poked through the canopy of night

Showing a starry view

Glimmers into ‘Heaven’

 

Are you peaking back at me?

Is this beauty for me to see?

As A lover showers his bride with gifts,

Have you given me the world,

In all it’s beauty,

Your eternal kiss?

 

Chip Cherps of critters

Cackling of trees

Senses hightened

My eyes play tricks on me

 

Though You see me through the stars

My eyes play tricks on me

Wishing I could feel you

Begging I could see

 

As the seasons change

Sooner does day become night

My eyes may see lights beauty

My souls domain is night

 

As easily as you have given the world

Take these crimson pieces of me

Let fates String Become Unfurled

 

 

 

 

The Alchemist

 

 

 

“So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.”
~ Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
(Artist ~ Niel Quisaba ‘surface to air’)

 

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Feelings change as time is sowed
I suppose it’s presidented as a relationship growsConversations of life and past lovers
collide intermingling ones life with another

My deepest desire is to do life with one
My twin flame, burning passion

Never could I settle for complacency
Perhaps I’m not thinking rationally.

Are these things I’m feeling growing into something more?
something I never predicted or opened up for

Floods pouring through my heart
praying for whats right, what won’t be torn apart

Star crossed lovers, born from deathly destruction
do we form an equation? the essential function?

I know now my happiness may only come from within
Spirit inspired, relinquished of Sin

I want to shine a light, run darkness from your world…

Continue this path, let the rest unfurl..


Gifts

We are all innately born with different gifts and ways of serving, for all to benefit. These Gifts are given by God and are pertinent to manifesting Love in a suffering world,  When acknowledged and used without self-full-filling motives.
As individuals these gifts manifest differently. Where as I may be gifted with people, possessing empathy and a genuine Love and curiosity …
for people, another may be a musician, artist writer. Another may be gifted intellectually, another with dreams. Some of us are great with children, others are masters with discernment and prayer. . . These are just a few examples – I’ve seen that those things that we are genuinely passionate about and seem to possess an innate desire and ability to perform must be evidense we are created in God’s image.
These things come together forming a tangible aspect of God, when we act in Loving intent. I keep making reference to motives, and Gifts being for all to share. Regardless of your choice of faith I believe these things are within you. M y recent studies have been in the New English Standard Version of The Bible. For a bit more info there is teaching on these things in 1Corinthians 12 and also a glimmer in Acts 13. Throughout religious congregations you often hear of people speaking in tongues, or having these holy visions. But I am hear to tell you this – These things are intended for the benefit and communion of all. We desire relationship – God desires relationship – we live this through meditation and fellowship with another.
When the apostles first spoke in ‘tongues’ they were not speaking an unknown language that was between them and God or Angels. They were given spiritual knowledge to speak in the languages of the those surrounding who did not understand Hebrew. God in his infinite desire for intimacy (in which we share) saw that all would be able to communicate and understand the Strength and gifts that come through Love. It is important that we do not define ourselves and self worth through others gifts – but instead meditate with focus on God and the collective, being thankful for our own strengths and how they may be beneficial to the rest of the body. Manifestations of the Spirit, the purest essence of God show through actions of Love. Selfless actions that we chose to perform because we know it is the right thing to do. Love is patient and kind, Love does not want of covet, Love does not fear or worry. I say this list to answer the question ‘How do I know if I’m acting in Love?

Light and love

LIGHT will always will always expel darkness. Love will always trump ANY other emotion. Light and Love are one with each other. My prayer is that we all learn the source of unconditional love, to walk this life in that unconditional love for all.

It draws us together,
It tears us apart.
It marks the end of a beginning,
Or does it simply make it start?
Unquestionable and divine
It charts a lineage for big and small
Controlling strings that thus connect us all.

In all our lives it guides us, pushes and controls us.
For purposes and causes relatively unknown.
Inevitable and undeniable, like a statistic,
It runs my life, behind curtains of chaotic turns.
I’ve seen its face, through counting the passing days
It’s neither good nor evil, like a program.
It merely bends and shapes all things,
Into the linearity of life and the development of soul.
It makes my purpose rather clear,
And yet completely unknown if I can change it all.

A friend posted this image from a book he is reading. . . It sent me on a rant. .

A friend posted this image from a book he is reading. . . It sent me on a rant. .

I would like to read this book.  I am enthralled at the initial question of ‘Why Evil. . ‘ Followed by a brigade of circles talking about Love.  F that.  ‘The capacity of Love has been annihilated from the psychology of a demon’…? Seriously?!?! …’A demon knows but does not love.  The pleasure achieved in doing an evil act is the same as that with a human being feels when he gets revenge on an enemy- it is a pleasure filled with hate.” … But a pleasure none- the- less.  Let me be the one to say this Satan IS an entity of God.  Psychology of a demon means no more to me than ‘Free-Will’ or ‘Self- Will’.  I am appalled at the lack in ability for people to accept responsibility for their own actions.  Why go bad things happen?  Because People make F*d up choices.  God ordained this as a probability if not a necessity to universal balance.  What exactly is a Loving God? What exactly do we know of Love?  If not only that it is one of the most powerful things we feel which we have no other word for. . .  So then, who is the enemy? We are.

Please also see:

http://nolieblinn.com/2013/09/12/religious-statements-confuse-me/

http://nolieblinn.com/2013/09/08/god-doesnt-require-a-script/

Would love to release you
instead I give you power
by taking on your pain through resentment

would give anything to let you go
instead you grow stronger

as I remember what was

poison to each other is all we ever were
leaching life or lack there of
dividing up pieces to make the other whole

through addictions and chaos
we would be each others demise
now my eyes are wide open,

you remain blind

placing blame where you can
not recognizing the source
you’ll continue to fall,

rock bottom becoming your foundation

  I hope the best for you
I’m letting you go
release me from your demons
allow my heart to flow

 

Comfortable Imperfection

I enjoy a cigarette and a glass of red wine, all the while condemning myself, blinded to the fact that God doesn’t. He loves me with ripped jeans and far too much sarcasm. The truths he speaks to my heart white out my flaws. Listening ears are a prayer request of mine, as well as a heart without judgment. It’s not perfection I seek,  But to find comfort within my imperfection.  Knowing, with my flaws I continue to a perfectly unique creation, essential to the universal design.

 

“The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference.”
― Elie Wiesel

love Yourself

Saw these words today ‘Love others as you Love yourself’and began to realize that Loving others is qualified by how we Love ourselves. We spend more time with ourselves than with anyone else…How do you feel in our alone time? Do you enjoy spending time with you? My challenge for myself and for any feeling compelled to accept, is ENJOY who you are. Love your quirks & flaws. Love the things you consider good traits, it’s not vanity it’s necessity. Love those things you would consider negative traits. Remember that we unite in our shortcomings, our weaknesses…not in trying to one-up each other. I believe we need to truly learn to Love ourselves, live passionately, be bold in what is True. Then we may begin to pour this out to a needing world around us..There’s no time to waste..

Whether good or bad hold experience near, let it be guidance through lives paths and it’s fears.

Fear and darkness, blinded to whats ahead, allow yourself strength without the burden of dread.

True love is constant, always unconditional. Without judgment, true friends will reach out when you fall.

It’s up to you to open your heart, let go the unyielding pain you consume from when it was torn apart.

Ridiculous as it seems, life’s highs are the best. More powerful, less destructive than any drug you ingest.

Natural euphoria, bearing no regret. Hold on to nostalgia, incidents you could never forget.Don’t take for granted the positive things you are given. Life without happiness is a life without living.

You think you know me

You think you know me?

you have no idea

the picture you’ve painted it isn’t clear

jaded by fears from a haunted past

holding relevence other memories last

suppose i should have known from the very beginning…

when it comes to the heart there is no winning

highs and lows tension to release

always shadowed by what the past keeps

suppose it’s my fault timing all wrong

remembering to except there’s a portrait being drawn

when two lives intertwine always an exchange

neither know in the beginning what will remain

said i accepted you for all that are

being candid myself hasn’t gone well so far

i can accept this isn’t whats for you

i can respect that with bullshit you’re through

where my problem lies is even when given the truth

still so quick to just move on through

not normally one to dwell on these things

for some reason now can’t get rid of the sting

gave myself to you in a way you can’t see

too caught up holding hearts key

 

For you My Love, I will come through,
let my hear rest only with you.
This sleepless nights’ led to a brighter day,
as my earnest words lead from dismay.

For you My Love, my heart is yours,
the gates drawn up you’ve broke down doors.
Tainted lusts drawn from a prideful mind,
I need you love, false motives left behind.

For you My Love, my fears’ cast out,
as loves’ perfected without dread from doubt.
My heart cries out for ever questioning this,
still you draw me back with your unmerited kiss.

For you My Love, I will wait,
faithful hands have drawn out fate.
He’s drawing masterful art from me and you,
knowing in time he’ll carry us through.

For you My Love, my hearts’ made gold,
while this fire simmers my story unfolds.
All perfection is made with a cost,
as the two become one you relinquish what was lost

 

Connection Is what I crave

Your deepest desires are what will come to pass,  whether they seem attainable is irreverent.  Follow your bliss.

 

Though I feel you always

Void seems to find me in absence

Surrounded by provision

Connection is what I crave

Individuals we may be

Our souls conjoined set us free

Until the day we may physically touch

I allow memories as a crutch